Graduation and Wedding are over...Now what?

Well to the people who read my blog....the last time I did this was in May and that was because we were required to, now I'm doing it to share my new experiences. To the people who followed me and have read my  posts, you'd know that I just graduated high school and am now a married woman. Both are very exciting steps that I have achieved, I feel like I did my best to graduate and receive my diploma but I was never reach the level of being the BEST wife, because .....well, its impossible. I will never be perfect, and I am okay with that.  I am a stay at home mom at the moment, although we don't even have kids yet, my husband says that "I need to stay home and keep the house clean and feed my self" etc....lol. I will start school in the fall and then try and find a part time job, maybe even go back to the good ole coffee shop! I feel once it's time for all the kids to go back to PC High I will start missing it...I kind of like packing my bag and picking my clothes out for the First Day of School and then my mom taking a picture of me. But I suppose all good things come to an end. My Husband works from the morning rise till around 6, then he cleans up, eats dinner and he's ready to hit the hay and do it all over again. You could say I feel bad for his since he hates his job, he is a musician and is in the construction field...Shout Out to Thomas "Thank You for all you do, and thank you for working your tail off for us!" Truth is he will never know how grateful I am! Alright now on the whole being married thing, I'm going to be honest...this could be scary to some people but....Nothing changed, we are still in love! I didn't turn into the lady with snakes in her hair and he didn't turn into someone I feared, we are happier then ever. I feel so blessed that I found my match when I did, I'm glad I didn't have to go through heart break after heart break. I'm glad God gave me my husband when he did :)

There is a picture of me and handsome Groom!!!I really love how blue the sky is in this picture! This was the best day of my life, by far. I cannot explain the feeling I had in my stomach on this day, my stomach was so nervous and I was so anxious, yet ready to be married!!

The entire day was perfect, and to be honest I don't care if anything did get messed up :) I got down the aisle in one piece and back down the aisle with my new husband and I was finally a Portwood!

He was pretty excited as well :) He did his very famous scream once it was finalized lol!

 

 

After the ceremony we headed over to the reception where there was food, cake, drinks, photo booth, and dancing. I did not eat because my stomach still felt all nervousy, I know that is not a word but there is know other way to describe it! We had our first dance that our Youth pastor and his wife sang to us, we dance to "I wont Give up - Jason Mraz, and let me tell you, it was amazing. It was a little scary since everyone was just starring at us as we rock back and forth lol

There we are dancing away!

 

The next dance was the Mother-Daughter dance, I decided to do this dance instead of a Father-Daughter because my father was never there unlike my mom. This day meant more to my mom then my Father, and to be honest I don't think he even deserves to have that title -_- Things with him and I are and have always been sour lol. After the dance it was cake cutting time, who loves cake? I know I do :)

We aren't very good at looking all sappy and romantic, but we sure can rock the serial killer look!!! haha

Following the cake cutting was changing our clothes!!! He hated his clothes, I'm pretty sure, but I LOVE when he's all dressed up. I personally loved wearing my dress and it made me a tad bit sad to take it off and realize all that time of searching and dress fittings was over :(( We then went and put on Bride and Groom shirts, this was more casual for the plane ride. We tossed the flowers and flung the garter, got the marriage license and then we were on our way to Florida1

This was us heading towards our car getting abused by bird seeds, no body told me how bad it hurt when that stuff hit your skin...Thanks for the warning :/

 

Now we were on our way to Florida, Thomas and I in the front seat and Thomas's mom and grandma in the back they road so they could take his car home from the hotel. We were both super nervous we weren't going to make it on time to the airport considering it was 2 hours away and I had never flown! Luckily we arrived there an hour and 45 minutes early and security was only 5 minutes long, yeah we were pretty darn lucky!! We sat and waited and read all the congratulations on good ole Facebook, bought some snack and before we knew it we were on the place headed to Daytona Beach, FL. We were so excited everything seemed to be working out in our best, which we found very hard to believe! We were in Florida, our first trip by ourselves, not going to lie it was kind of scary....but very exciting and I loved every gosh darn moment! :)

 

Up in the Air :)Just us, being us!!

Our view was pretty much AHHHmazing!!!:)

 

This picture was taken inside the backseat of a taxi, I personally do not like taxis because they charge SO MUCH!!! I was also sad we were leaving and some reason Very Very tired in this picture.

Well this is our story so far, I hope you have enjoyed, I will try and keep this updated a little better!

Senior Final

Signing up for this class as a junior I was unsure and a little hesitant, when I saw that it was creative writing I figured oh, no! I’ll be writing all the time. But I was wrong I boy was that a good surprise. I am glad that I finished this class with a smile and a good grade.

 This is quite weird that this is my last Tuesday as a high school student, my last day in this class. Which is kind of nerve wrecking because then I have to go into the real world and be a grown up. That is frightening in itself…Haley being a grown up? That doesn’t even really make sense does it? Ha-ha, no fellow classmates and anyone else who read this, the answer is no it doesn’t make sense; it seems like just yesterday I was in middle school or even 5^th grade and just moving here. This was an interesting class; it was cool reading about everyone’s life and there plans for after school. It was definitely better then actually having to write on paper every day. I also liked on Wednesdays when we would do the boy/girl activity that got the little mouse in our head spinning. This also caused laughter and a little competition. And of course the girls finished with the most points. This class was a success for me and I am glad that I took it, it taught me to focus on today and not stress on the future, which was always on my mind.

The advice I would give to students coming up would be, if you do not like writing then you probably shouldn’t take this class, although you will learn a lot of stuff about yourself that you didn’t know, and you will learn more things about your classmates. Even if you don’t like writing like most of the students in my class, it will prepare you for college, you have tons and tons essays and this will help you.

My favorite blog post was when we typed a sentence and then rotated seats to the right, and then the next person would write a sentence. It was the most exciting and interesting, but most of all we all got a good laugh out of it! Laughter is a good thing to have which we didn’t do often, because of all the typing. It was cool how one sentence could turn into a street race, or a fairytale ending in a house fire, or an alien invasion and that is how you can tell the different types of personalities in the class.

The most valuable thing I learned in class was that I can actually sit down and concentrate for more than 30 minutes. When I would sit down I would focus and try my best to finish the assignment with excellence which wouldn’t always happen because sometime I would draw a blank, but with the help of classmates they would give me ideas. Of course with the ones about myself they couldn’t help me but they could tell me what qualities I have and which ones I lack. I think that was another thing I learned about myself, and it was a good thing to hear from other people, people who see me every day. They have taught me to keep some things to myself, because I am to honest. Yea, that’s not always a bad thing but in some situations it is bad. I also believe it was a good thing to get criticism from my classmates to improve myself before I get thrown into the real world with millions of people.  

Valuable Lessons

1.       Treat everyone the way you want to be treated: I feel this is a really good lesson because if you treat people like crap then be ready for them to treat you the exact same. But…if you treat people polite then you shall also receive that.

2.       Bad things happen to good people: This isn’t something you can change it just seems like good people are always having tragedies.

3.       Time heals all wounds: Tragedy can happen in just a few seconds but time can help you heal and put the past where it belongs.

4.       Follow your dreams: If you don’t do so then you will always be living in regret, or always living in a state of what if? You should go for your dreams because you only have one life.

5.       This too shall pass: Living in a rut can be difficult but it will always pass and you can always overcome whatever the situation may be.

6.       Never regret, if it’s good, it’s wonderful. If it bad, it’s experience:  Don’t regret anything that happens, because everything happens for a reason.

7.       Always be yourself: If you’re being like everyone else in the world then there are no differences from anyone else. You should want to be your own individual self.

8.       Life’s a garden, dig it: Life is amazing, so enjoy every second of it. Why? Because you only have one.

9.       You can never be happy if you have never been sad: You have to be sad to become happy every once in a while. It sounds awful to say that but you have to go through that experience.

10.   Keep your head up: Someone could be going through something worse then you so keep your head up and be strong, there are tons of terrible things in the world so yours probably isn’t the worst! So just keep your head up.

Fine Line

Good
1. I'm Funny
2. I'm Entertaining
3. I'm a Good Listener
4. I'm Talkative
5. I'm Artsy
6. I'm Faithful
7. I'm Stylish
8. I Never Stink
9. I have a Loud Laugh
10. I'm a Planner

Bad
1. I have a Temper
2. I am Talkative
3.I have Spit-Ends
4. I'm Blunt
5. I'm Sarcastic
6. I have a Loud Laugh
7. I'm Lazy
8. I'm a Procrastinator
9. I like to Rebel
10. Can be Rude

Epilogue

I have learned about myself that I am still unsure about the future and that I am up for anything new. I have ideas planned for my future but if they don’t go as planned I won’t throw a fit, I like adventures and am willing to take them. I also love family; they are what’s important to me and I love spending time with them and making memories. I should improve on my temper, little things that set me off. Those things in life are not worth getting mad at and I shouldn’t spend majority of my time mad or upset. This class has improved my writing in the following way, I put little details into my writing now because without them the reader is lost, I also have enjoyed learning things about myself and I am able to write about what I have learned. It has helped me to discover hidden things that I didn’t really know about myself, for instance I am a very open person.

Caring- I care for people all people in fact; I enjoy helping them in fact, anyway that I can do so. I care for my family and friends and individuals in general.

Understanding- I try to understand every situation and when I do this I try and see what should be done to solve the situation.

Respectful- When I was young my mother taught be to respect people and that has got me a long way in life so far, in school I have noticed not a lot of people respect teachers, students or even their parents. For those people it is very fortunate they have not been taught this lesson because sooner or later they are going to get hurt.

I have learned to open up, that doesn’t necessarily mean you have to go to a counselor or have to talk to everyone about your problems but just write about your issues, or just daily things. It’s one way to get things off your chest and to just breathe. I have enjoyed this class for the most part, some of the assignments were kind of difficult because they made me dig deep and think about personal things and it tends that I usually try and erase anything bad that has happened. But your assignments brought them back up, and that isn’t always bad but for me trying to remember is…something in my brain just wants to remove it. It’s good to remember memories that have taken place in your own life.

Creating a list and Checking it twice

1.    People who have influenced me

-          My mother

-          My step father

-          My grandparents

-          Friends

-          Teachers

-          Mrs. Garner

2.    Places that make me happy

-          The beach

-          The lake

-          Chillaxing in my house with a good movie

-          Restaurants

-          My room

-          Going to friends’ houses

3.    Places I would like to go

-          Italy

-          On a cruise

-          Rome

-          Bahamas

-          Jamaica

-          Australia

-          Colorado

4.    Things in people that I like

-          Honesty

-          Generosity

-          Humor

-          Sarcasm

-          Thoughtfulness

-          Kindness

5.    Things in people that I dislike

-          Liars

-          Disrespectful people

-          People who steal

-          Drama

-          Cockiness

-           Thieves

-          Ignorance

-          Playing dumb

-          Talking like a child

6.    Things that worry me

-          The future

-          Secrets

-          Crowds

-          Money

-          Driving

-          Being in a car wreck

7.    Things I would like to know how to do

-          Sew

-          Cook a decent meal

-          Skateboard

-          Swim

-          Play an instrument

-          Design clothes

8.    Things that have moved me

-          When Thomas proposed

-          The love given to me by my parents

-          My Relationship with my fiancé

-          My brother being born

-          Sad movies

-          My engagement

9.    Ideas that intrigue me

-          Drinking and driving is ok, if you have only drinking a little.

-          There are aliens

-          Anyone can come and be a citizen in our country and receive everything hard workers get

-          Welfare is the cure for everything

-          Not doing your homework is ok.

-          Let’s spend money that we don’t have, that’s sounds like a brilliant idea.

10. My personal favorites

-          Sleeping

-          Cuddling

-          Shopping

-          Talking

-          Laughing

-          Movies

-          Warm days

-          Laying outside and relaxing

-          Having big scrunchy hair on a summer day with big shades!

Never Say Good-Bye

Goodbyes are always hard even if you‘re going to be seeing them again. I think the hardest goodbye was when my second cousin had lung cancer. I remember always going to her house and hanging out she always had silly putty for me to play with and I had a weird obsession with that stuff. She also had cats and I loved those cats the only bad part is they hated people, so I didn’t see them much. She was married to a man named chuck and he was abusive and not very nice to her and I didn’t know this until she passed away. The rest of my family knew this and had hate towards him, and that’s one reason they were scared to tell her goodbye. I got a little older and started understanding things a little better, for instance I knew that if you smoke you could get lung cancer. But I didn’t quite understand this scenario; she stopped smoking but continued to have this lingering cough. I remember my nana and my mother being scared and always talking about it and I just figured it’s a cough everyone gets coughs even people who smoke, that doesn’t automatically mean she has this disease. But before I knew it she went to the doctor and was told she had stage 4 lung cancer, we were all crushed. I didn’t quite understand the stages but they all knew her time was coming to an end. She had frequent doctor appointments and had to soon quit her job, and just stay at home in a hospital bed. That was the hardest thing to watch her suffer in bed; I was only 10 so I didn’t understand why she wasn’t getting better. My mom quit her job and started taking care of her daily; I can’t imagine how she felt after her passing. My second cousin was like a second mom to my mom, so she was going through something even worse. Saying goodbye to her was scarier and scarier because you never knew if you were going to receive the phone call that she had passed. It was almost like we were walking on eggshells.  It makes me sad because I wish she could have been there for different occasions, like birthdays and the big ones like my wedding and even when I begin to have children. I wish she could have met Thomas, I think they would have got along wonderfully. Well back to the story, we stayed close to her house about 15 minutes away, and one morning we received the dreadful phone call. The only way I knew that’s what it was because of all the crying, it broke my heart to see my mom cry so much in the past months but this was worse. We got together and just wept, because they had decided to cremate her, so there wasn’t going to be a regular funeral. The “funeral” was in her house which was such a hard thing, where close family gathered. We watched films, and slideshows and just spent time together. I think this was the hardest goodbye because we had to watch her go, in so much pain.