Creating a list and Checking it twice

1.    People who have influenced me

-          My mother

-          My step father

-          My grandparents

-          Friends

-          Teachers

-          Mrs. Garner

2.    Places that make me happy

-          The beach

-          The lake

-          Chillaxing in my house with a good movie

-          Restaurants

-          My room

-          Going to friends’ houses

3.    Places I would like to go

-          Italy

-          On a cruise

-          Rome

-          Bahamas

-          Jamaica

-          Australia

-          Colorado

4.    Things in people that I like

-          Honesty

-          Generosity

-          Humor

-          Sarcasm

-          Thoughtfulness

-          Kindness

5.    Things in people that I dislike

-          Liars

-          Disrespectful people

-          People who steal

-          Drama

-          Cockiness

-           Thieves

-          Ignorance

-          Playing dumb

-          Talking like a child

6.    Things that worry me

-          The future

-          Secrets

-          Crowds

-          Money

-          Driving

-          Being in a car wreck

7.    Things I would like to know how to do

-          Sew

-          Cook a decent meal

-          Skateboard

-          Swim

-          Play an instrument

-          Design clothes

8.    Things that have moved me

-          When Thomas proposed

-          The love given to me by my parents

-          My Relationship with my fiancé

-          My brother being born

-          Sad movies

-          My engagement

9.    Ideas that intrigue me

-          Drinking and driving is ok, if you have only drinking a little.

-          There are aliens

-          Anyone can come and be a citizen in our country and receive everything hard workers get

-          Welfare is the cure for everything

-          Not doing your homework is ok.

-          Let’s spend money that we don’t have, that’s sounds like a brilliant idea.

10. My personal favorites

-          Sleeping

-          Cuddling

-          Shopping

-          Talking

-          Laughing

-          Movies

-          Warm days

-          Laying outside and relaxing

-          Having big scrunchy hair on a summer day with big shades!

Never Say Good-Bye

Goodbyes are always hard even if you‘re going to be seeing them again. I think the hardest goodbye was when my second cousin had lung cancer. I remember always going to her house and hanging out she always had silly putty for me to play with and I had a weird obsession with that stuff. She also had cats and I loved those cats the only bad part is they hated people, so I didn’t see them much. She was married to a man named chuck and he was abusive and not very nice to her and I didn’t know this until she passed away. The rest of my family knew this and had hate towards him, and that’s one reason they were scared to tell her goodbye. I got a little older and started understanding things a little better, for instance I knew that if you smoke you could get lung cancer. But I didn’t quite understand this scenario; she stopped smoking but continued to have this lingering cough. I remember my nana and my mother being scared and always talking about it and I just figured it’s a cough everyone gets coughs even people who smoke, that doesn’t automatically mean she has this disease. But before I knew it she went to the doctor and was told she had stage 4 lung cancer, we were all crushed. I didn’t quite understand the stages but they all knew her time was coming to an end. She had frequent doctor appointments and had to soon quit her job, and just stay at home in a hospital bed. That was the hardest thing to watch her suffer in bed; I was only 10 so I didn’t understand why she wasn’t getting better. My mom quit her job and started taking care of her daily; I can’t imagine how she felt after her passing. My second cousin was like a second mom to my mom, so she was going through something even worse. Saying goodbye to her was scarier and scarier because you never knew if you were going to receive the phone call that she had passed. It was almost like we were walking on eggshells.  It makes me sad because I wish she could have been there for different occasions, like birthdays and the big ones like my wedding and even when I begin to have children. I wish she could have met Thomas, I think they would have got along wonderfully. Well back to the story, we stayed close to her house about 15 minutes away, and one morning we received the dreadful phone call. The only way I knew that’s what it was because of all the crying, it broke my heart to see my mom cry so much in the past months but this was worse. We got together and just wept, because they had decided to cremate her, so there wasn’t going to be a regular funeral. The “funeral” was in her house which was such a hard thing, where close family gathered. We watched films, and slideshows and just spent time together. I think this was the hardest goodbye because we had to watch her go, in so much pain.

In Other Words

Im a person who relies very heavily on intuition and feeling out the situation, so Ive never really made a five-year plan or anything like that, if its right, it will fall into place and if not, I understand.

-Emma Stone   “Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.”  Ashley Smith   “Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”  Howard Thurman   “If you wait to do everything until you're sure it's right, you'll probably never do much of anything.”  Win Borden   Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.   A true outlaw finds balance between the passion in his heart and the reason in his mind. The outcomes is the balance of might and right. -Jax from Sons of Anarchy   We must learn to live together as brothers or perish together as fools. Martin Luther King, Jr.   To succeed in life, you need three things: a wishbone, a backbone and a funnybone. Reba McEntire   When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us. - Helen Keller   Some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon 'em. - William Shakespeare

Synetics

1.       Which is more suspenseful? Rain or snow? I would say snow is more suspenseful, because when it snows it cause roads to be dangerous and people drive awful but they also tend to drive that way when it rains. Once snow melts it turns into water which is similar to rain and can also flood.

2.       Which is more difficult? A dream or a nightmare? I would have to go with a nightmare; I find nightmares to be more difficult because in mine I can’t seem to wake up when I begin to have one. I also wake up extremely terrified.

3.       Which is more fearful? Past or future? The future is more fearful because you don’t know what’s going to come, at least in past it has already happened and been taken care of. I think the future is something most people fear but also look forward to.

4.       Which has more meaning? Print or signature? I would say that a signature has more meaning, because it is your own and you made it, anyone can print your name. But not everyone can have the same signature. Signing something usually has meaning in the first place like contracts, or a check, how about even a marriage license.

5.       Which is more useful? A friend or an enemy? A friend is more useful because they are the one person who is going to be there for you, hopefully for anything. They are someone who will help you when you are down or help you just to do everyday tasks.

6.       Which is happier? Music or art? Music is happier to me, when I feel down I choose to listen to music rather than to go to an art gallery. There is such a wide variety of music which fits every mood you may be in, art may not have that.

7.       Which is easier to close? A road or a map? It is easier to close a map, than it is to close a road. I really enjoy road trips. I would rather be lost on the road then not out enjoying the trip.

8.       Which has more pride? Entrance or exit? I think the entrance has more pride, the walk in is always the hardest, walking away is the easiest. So having enough pride to walk through door, whatever doors may symbolize.

9.       Which is braver? An hour or a year? I believe a year is braver because if you have the guts to actually analyze the future, you are already braver than most. A year is a longer span then an hour so the more time you dwell the faster it will be gone.

10.   Which is like a contest? A cloud or a sunset? A sunset is most definitely a contest because, once you miss it you have to wait till the next day, and even then it won’t be the exact same as the day before. A sunset is something so beautiful is should be watched every time you given the opportunity.

Unfinished Sentences

1. I usually worry about the future. I wonder why I worry so much, and that I should just let things happen, but it’s a lot harder to do. I think it is becoming an easier task to let things happen on there own.

2. I feel angry when Thomas picks at me, for instance when he does something over and over again until I snap. I have gotten a lot better, because I can tell when he’s doing something just to annoy me so I then sit there in silence or snicker.

3. I’m moody when, I do not receive food. This sound weird but my mood changed drastically when I am hungry. I will snap if I don’t get fed, and then as soon as I get what I need. I am in a perfectly good mood.

4. I’m happiest when, I get to spend time with family and friends. I like talking about memories and mostly I like making new ones. I like to even sit back and watch Thomas interact with my family. I think that makes me the happiest.

5. I feel confident when, I can finish a task on my own. For instance for my wedding I have tried to do as many DIY projects as I can, and when I finish one on my own I feel confident in myself. I also can’t wait till I look at all my decoration and say “YA, I made that!”

6. I feel frustrated when, I don’t get a say. I don’t like when something is picked out and I didn’t get a part in it. My mom here lately I have given her the power to do so but if it were anyone else I would go crazy. My mom knows me pretty well so I can trust her.

7. I feel depressed when, I think about money. I think money is the rude of all evil. That’s the one thing everyone wishes they had more of, and at some times and most times that is what I think about. I know people who are rich think about having more money, when I’m over here like “man, how are we going to pay for this?”

8. I am comfortable when, I am at home on the couch on a Saturday night in sweats with Thomas and we are watching movies. I like knowing he would snuggle with me, even when I look my worst! I also feel most comfortable when me and him just joke around, and that we do quite often.

9. I feel nervous when, I have to give a speech in front of people, I usually don’t like all eyes being on me. Some may say I’m the class clown and yeah I can crack some jokes but I am not a stand-up comedian kind of girl.

10. I feel sentimental when, it’s a Sunday night and my mom cooks dinner and we gather around the couch and watch TV. This is sentimental to me because it doesn’t happen often. This is one thing I’m really going to miss when I leave. I see myself in the future scheduling movie night with my family.

Metaphorical Definitions

1.       Stress is a slithering python

2.       Sleep is a new baby.

3.       Hope is a white dove.

4.       Faith is an open bible.

5.       Creativity is a painting.

6.       Relaxation is a bubble bath.

7.       Curiosity is a cat.

8.       Trust is an airplane.

9.       Knowledge is a dictionary.

10.   Stress is a hurricane.

11.   Sadness is a tear.

12.   Memorization is a punch in the face.  

13.   Life is a tattoo.

14.   Sleep is a rainy day.

15.    Hectic is a storm.

16.   Anger is a concert.

Sensory Experience

Mission Trip 2009 ( Florida)  

See

Unfamiliar cars, Miles of bridges,

 water rushing beneath the tires,

 Blue skies, bright scorching sun beating down, damp and muggy atmosphere.

Taste

Ice cold beverages served with a flexible straw

inexpensive grub being served in diminutive to-go sacks.

Scorching yet blistering substances

Hear

Overpowering intensity echoing off the people mover. Obnoxious yells, of excitement for accomplishing the desired endpoint.

The pacific rushing back and forth, swishing of the waves

Clicking of sandals against the unbelievably warm pavement.

Touch/Feel

Blistering sun beating down on my back and head, skin changing colors by the hours

Sand stuck to every inch of our bodies, seaweed stuck in different odd and end places.

Cool, refreshing water running over our sunburnt skin

Smell

The aroma of strong salty water

 Sweet smell of protecting your skin

Grills all around firing up to serve famished stomachs on the shore.